Who's In Charge?

Pastor Chris and I went to alittle bit of the Wellspring worship night at UNCW tonight and it was amazing. Let's be honest, however, that style of worship is not for everyone and would turn some people off. But during the second song (so 1 hour in) I was taking in the worship and started to pray and ponder over where Crosswinds worship is and found myself asking God how I can take our worship to this level of depth and skill. I started reshuffling Sunday set lists and changing my direction, when God corrected me. I so love when God corrects me. He started saying to me; "You're trying too hard". I'm thinking; "this is my job God, how can you say I'm trying too hard". I all of a sudden found myself in a beautiful argument with God, Habakkuk style. So I was taking that in when I looked up and listened to the words being sung, "Love be in my bones, Love break down my walls". I was floored!!! Love, aka God, needed to be more in my bones and break down my walls. "What are my walls?" God was demanding I relax because in all reality I was getting in the way of worship. Do sets need to be changed, probably, do I need to work hard and diligent on Crosswinds worship, oh yes, however I must let God be God not only in our worship but in my planning, and more importantly in my personal times of worship with the Creator. I mean, here I am in the middle of a truly amazing time in the presence of God and all I want to do is plan new set lists because of the songs I'm hearing, and not simply soak in the words being sung. I love it when God corrects me!! On a final note here is the quote of the night from Jonathan Helser, "I always wondered why we raise our hands in worship and then I had kids. I see them everyday come up to me with hands raised saying 'pick me up daddy'. That is what we are doing when we raise our hands to our Father, we are saying 'pick me up Papa." Beautiful words!!!

Scott